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[19 Feb 2005|08:12pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

im stuck home and im missing my favorite group Senses Fail..why you ask? Because im soooo fucking sick. First this all started with food poisoning (damn miami subs)..puking, fever, shaking then the voice just totally went,possibilly pink eye again and i havent been to school because well how do you spend 5 hours in a kitchen making food for other people to eat when you cant stand up because you feel like you'll faint and because of a little thing called contamination of food....so i couldnt see Justin or any of my chef friends<3

Missed work completely today and went to the doc instead, waited 2 fucking hours in a shitty ghetto waiting room for the doctor to see me a total of 5 minutes. a nurse questioned me first and one of the questions was are you sexually active...and i had to think about it..its been awhile..and then i thought wow the last time i was here was when i was with mark, he actually came to the doctors with me and now i was there alone with no one to take care of me. i had no voice, my eye was completely red and bloodshot so i only had one contact in which made things soooo horrible and the conclusion of it all was i need to not wear contacts for a month and that i need to go on 3 (more) medications.. So i drove home and i just started crying because i feel so alone. no friends, no boyfriend, it sucks. Being sick really brings out the worst of things, it makes you see who cares, whos willing to go to the doctor with you even when you have to sit in the waiting room 2 hours..

Whatever, life seriously cant get any worse then it is right now..and if it wants to try, fucking bring it on..

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[20 Dec 2004|11:45pm]
Finallllly saw Michal and Nili on thursday :) it was nice, lots of people were there, felt like old times. Saturday night was the company ACE party, the one that we were all soooo excited for because we bought new dresses and were excited about our dates...and it turned out no one went except Edi with Domingo and Me and David...my date which was supose to be Mark, decided it wasnt cool so for the first time in a long time i was dateless for one of those "dont come alone" things so David asked me to go...
When i got there i looked like the third wheel aside Edi and Domingo..we all sat in the back while all the grown ups got drunk and played air guitar to AC/DC then bailed an hour into the night. I of course went home, alone. Heh.
Next day at work, my manager calls me over and asks who my date was since i put "Nichole+2 " on the list. "ohh umm..my date fell through at the last minute..so.." "Yeah we all noticed you came alone.."
Salt in the wound right there, remind me AGAIN that no one wants to be with me..
So with all that in mind, ive been in one of those depressive moods...

I'll be driving up to Fort Pierce, or whatevers halfway to Daytona to see my Mom and little brother on christmas eve. That should be entertaining:)

Im excited to start at the Art Institute in January, im finally going to meet some new people..
</3
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[14 Dec 2004|12:42pm]
The past few days have been great, thanks to a certain someone. The Jingle Ball was on Sunday, we were running a little late, and i was alittle pissed but only because i thought the night was going to be so much more then it was AND because Ryan Caberea was first on and the show started EXACTLY at 6pm..BUT we arrived, ticketless, and raced over to Willcall, got the tickets and ran into Nili, and a few girls from ACE, represent!

Got in line which thankfully moved fast, got inside, our seats were great and Ryan Caberea <3 came on within minutes. He was AMAZINGG! He only played 3 songs but at the end he did this awesome drums solo that went on forever but it really impressed me and even Mark gave him props for it. OOHH and he sang the last chorus in "True" <3 in spanish..sexxxyyy. Then all the bullshit rap came on so we sat off to the side of the stage where no one was and watched half of it. Maroon 5 was great, Black eyed peas were the crowd pleasers and John Mayer was the absolute BEST. My phone rang so i went in the hall to answer it and i hear the woman announcer say "This guys makes my body feel like a wonderland!!" and im like SHIT so i ran in and Marks cracking up so i run up the stairs just in time to see his beautiful face come onstage. I didnt even sit in my seat i was so excited, i just plopped down in the isle and watched him. He only did 3 songs too but they were the best 20 mins ever! He played "Neon" which was a complete shock. When he was done i was just breathless, it was so amazing. Whew! The weather was cold, John Mayer was in the same room and love was in the air:) We left, stopped for food and i drove him home.

<3
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[22 Nov 2004|11:29pm]
Alrite peeps..anyone from the Hills class of 2004, if you have good pictures from any good memories of senior year(games, rallies, homecoming week, prom, graduation,anything really)..i want them, even if i wasnt there or dont hang out with you. i wanna make this huge college of pictures of all the seniors...soo even if you arent a 2004 graduate and have pictures of kids from last year, share em..

Christine, Gaby, all you guys, i know you have some great pictures of some of the kids from my class so if you have 'em scanned, i could easily print them out and it'd help me out allllot and id appriciate it sooo much:)

Thanks soo much to anyone who helps out:):):)

-Nichole-
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[17 Nov 2004|02:55pm]
Ten years ago I was
1. nine years old..
2. at bethune elementary school
3. Thinking there wasnt a worry in the world and that life was going to be simple

Five years ago I was
1. in 8th grade at attucks middle school
2. wondering what high school was going to be like..
3. best friends with Jeffrey and Kegan..</3 Last year I was 1. senior at hollywood hills highschool 2. 18...legal.. 3. Completely happy, in love, and in a wonderful happy healthy year long relationship with Mark Gundin Yesterday I was 1. Tired, pissy, sad, lonely, irritated... 2. Bummed because Le Cordon Bleu isnt going to work out.. 3. Happy because i watched One tree hill and went to barnes and nobles Today I was 1. In pain because my eye is acting up again, its red, itchy and hurts like hell.. 2. Tired and didn't want to get out of bed. 3. Nervous because i have to go to The Art Institute at 5 Tomorrow I will be 1. Shopping for someones last minute birthday gift.. 2. Lazy and wont wanna get out of bed 3. Thinking about someone 24/7..like always.. Five years from now I will be 1. Twenty four....::GASP:: 2. Done with college, hopefully have a steady job 3. In a serious relationship, with someone that loves me for me.. Ten years from now I will be 1. 29...jesus... 2. Married..please.. 3. Hopefully happy and healthy..and if a family comes alone, so be it :)
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[13 Nov 2004|11:00pm]
Im in my dads room brushing my hair listening to y100..the song.."she will be loved" by maroon 5 which happens to be like my favorite song right now:) which happens to make me think about someone very important and special to me, someone i hope will come with me to SEE Maroon 5 and John mayer...:) SO i look over towards my dads closet and what do i see? a red vans sweater,i look away but then i look again and a red sweater in my DADS closet sticks out like crazy but whose sweater IS it..jeffreys..hmm havent thought of him in a while..ok well thats a lie but i havent spoke to him since summer time and the last conversation wasnt a good one, it actualy ended our friendship..of 5 years but whatever, his dirty nasty stinky ass red vans sweater ended up in my house... the sweater that sat in the back of my truck allllll senior year, people used it as pillows, seats, prolly a rag to wipe shit up with and it was passed around soooo much..i think it actually started with jason henry then went to jeff..then jen..then to my truck and now its in MY house..thats gross lol

my eyes are puffy and they hurt and my feet are swollen from being on them since 6 in the morning..i hate Ace...but i need some sleep because ill be back there in the mornin'

<3
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[12 Nov 2004|01:44pm]
So..this new ryan caberea song, "true"..which when i first got his cd became my favorite song instantly because well it reminded me of someone and blah blah you know the story. sad song, very sad song, the kind that literally makes you cry and get goosebumps and makes your stomach knot up like crazy everytime you hear it..So i always skip that song now on the cd just because it makes me that sad, and i dont really like how it makes me feel. So now its all over the radio and i got stuck listening to it and jesus, i cant believe a single song can have that much effect of me...:sigh:

Anyways, hugeeeeeee sidewalk sale at ACE for anyone who maybe needs some school stuff, art stuff, scrapbook stuff, who knows, come on down, it'll be all day longggg, packed of course but you'll see yours truly so come on down.

Tonite after work im coming home and watching "Oceans Eleven"
<3



...how can you find yourself trapped in your own private hell...
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[09 Nov 2004|10:39pm]
Catered all day monday and tuesday in MiAmI..it was awesome, i met some really cool hot guys and they were ALL chefs, or into cooking and whatnot.awesome. One reallllly caught my eye ;)

Anywho, Laguna Beach is soooooo not real. Hills had some decent guys, not meaning good looking but like genuwine and sincere but none of them asked their someone to go to prom by putting fish in a pool"go to prom with me", or roses up their drive way..unreal i tell you.
:(
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[04 Nov 2004|11:07am]
First..get a pen and paper. When you actually
choose names, make sure it's people you actually
know and go with your first instinct.

Scroll down one line at a time...and don't read
ahead or you'll ruin it!

1. First, write the numbers 1 through 11 in a
column.














2. Then, beside numbers 1 and 2, write down any
two numbers you want.












3. Beside the 3 and 7, write down the names of
members of the opposite sex.












NO LOOKING AHEAD...OR IT WON"T TURN OUT RIGHT!




4. Write anyone's name (like friends or
family....) in the 4th, 5th, and 6th spots.












5. Write down four song titles in 8,9,10, and 11.












GO WITH YOUR INSTINCT PEOPLE!!!!




6. Finally, make a wish.













And now the key for the game.....






1. You must tell (the number in space 2) people
about this game.













2. The person in space 3 is the one that you
love.












3. The person in 7 is one you like but can't
work out.












4. You care most about the person you put in 4.













5. The person you name in number 5 is the one
who knows you very well.













6. The person you name in 6 is your lucky star.













7. The song in 8 is the song that matches with
the person in number 3.












8. The title in 9 is the song for the person in 7














9. The tenth space is the song that tells you
most about YOUR mind.













10. and 11 is the song telling you how you feel
about life




NOW...post this bulletin (dont reply) within the
hour... IF you do..
your wish will come true...
If you don't it will become the opposite.
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[04 Nov 2004|10:53am]
Who got 26th row to the jingle ball....MEEEEE...John Mayer, Ryan Caberea...here i comeeee....

i gotta make a shirt, or two for them and its gonna be funnnn...i have an extra ticket but they were 80 bucks each...so if anyone wants one, lemme know..

oooh hilary duffs gonna be there, i should make a shirt that says "i fucked Joel when you were still losin that baby fat.." HAHA i hate her..

-Nicholita
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[02 Nov 2004|01:44pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

OOOMMMMMGGGGG John Mayor AND RYAN CABEREA ARE going to be at the JINGLE BALL!!!! im soooo excited!!:):)
i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee them soooo much!!!

Well so is Maroon 5 which is also sooooo awesome!! i cant wait

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

:)

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[24 Oct 2004|11:09pm]
</3 NOm0uthwashFX: i understand if you're still upset
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[19 Oct 2004|12:09pm]
BiRtHdAy weekend update...yes it was my birthday this wekeend. thanks to those of you who completely forgot..anywho friday after work Josh called me and said he was coming down so he wanted to hang out which i wasnt completely up for but hes only down like one weekend a month so i picked him up and we decided on Dennys...how common. Max happened to be at the gas station right across the street so he came over to say hi and then he left. So me and josh are in the booth, playing MASH just talking about certain things...ahem::mark::ahem whom yes im still completely in love with, its not a secret. so josh is facing the parking lot so he can see who comes and goes and i see his face like lose all face expression and i could tell right away what was going on. so i turned around to look and whos walking up the walkway entering the building...mark and the scumbag aka john. i fucking freaked out, my face turned completely red and i started panicing, if you would have seen me it was quite amusing and funny just not to me...so they walked in and i like hid my face under my hands and he saw me.. and he saw my truck outside in the parking lot, how noticable is my truck people..so they sat down and i saw him get up so my face got just a little bit more red as i realized he was coming over. He said hi and that it was good to see me and some other bullshit and i just couldnt look at him so he left...about 10 minutes go by, me trying to plan my escape of course, they get up and he comes to say bye which again i couldnt look at him. They ordered drinks and left....he left because of me which made me feel...so horrible but im suprised he came up and said hi to me considering we havent spoke to each other or seen each in about 2 months. It was like something out of a soap opera..why of all places in fucking south florida did we have to think of the same shitty restraunt?
:sigh:
So of course, we left as soon as we could and i just broke down, it hurt me alot to see him and he had no idea my birthday was literally a day away. Saturday was the senses fail show with Max. it was alot of fun, we drove and hour 15 mins comsidering there was like 2 accidents and i have no ac in my truck right now but we got there, saw christine and gaby which was nice, they looked pretty, i havent seen them since warped tour-ish. The place, the kelsey club is nice, never been there but definately different from the factory. I got a beautyful Senses Fail hoodie and lost an earring but it was all well worth it. Got home around 1 which we realized it was already my birthday, kinda. Woke up Sunday morning, my dad wasnt even home..so i went to work, the day wasnt so bad, my manager bought me lunch, a quesidillo ? which made me soooo sick i had to put up those orange cones infront of the bathroom so people wouldnt come in but it gave the sunday crew a story to laugh about. Then those sneaky kids all ended up in the office and as were closing decided to sing me happy birthday over the intercom. it was really nice and completely unexpected. they got me ice cream cake and cupcakes. I drove home and i see my dad driving somewhere so i went home to an empty house..i open the door and theres roses and a balloon right in the doorway and my eyes watered because i had no idea who wuld of sent them... no card nothing but on the slip it had a phone number and it was Michi!!! She sent me flowers all the way from chicago! i couldnt believe it, i started crying!! Two reasons why, one because i was so happy and two because i realized no one came to see me at work...my best friends...didnt come or even call and a girl in fucking chicago didnt forget me..so i we0nt online to thank her and my dad walks in..empty handed..so i just got pissed off. Blakes over annoying me so i just went in my room and called my mom, who even in daytona she sent me a card and money a week ago. She felt bad she couldnt be here for my birthday and i understand its alot of money to come down here every month. She staarted talking about my last birthday, how i got in my accident and we all went out to dinner, me nili michal and mark with my family...and it just made me feel bad. He hadnt called or anything. I understand that we broke up but my birthday..so next thing i know my dad sister and blake are on my bed hitting me to get up but i was so pissed he didnt get me anything not even a card..so he left to go "get something" but i was already pissy. An hour goes by and he convinced me to go eat and he has to bring up mark, if ive talked to him, if he called me today...just rub some more salt in the wound pleaseeee. I went home, the drunk neighbors were outside so they kept me out there a few minutes and after that i just went inside to bed. He gave me a card with 100 bucks in it..and that concluded my shitty weekend..

On thursday before all the drama started, Chris, Marks twin brother came into my work looking for a job..i hadnt seen him in even longer..like since june but it was weird..then his grandma comes in and hugs me, almost makes me start crying, she asked how ive been..and said she missed seeing me around. Shes like the nicest lady, besides marks mom, that ive ever met. i just dont see where the twins come into that, theyre such cocksuckers...but it was just a very weird and coincidential few days..

BUT...im 19 NOW FUCKERS!!


<3 A gaping hole, shot through my heart.
A loss of connection from your poisoned dart.
My head it now spins, my ears bleed gold.
I try so fucking hard, but I don't fit your mold.<3333

<33You ripped my HEART out.
You tore my eyes out and now your gonna pay.
I'll stab you one time, I'll eat your heart out, so you feel my pain.
Don't you know that, I always see you, in all my dreams.
IWANTTO KILLYOUUUU!!
I wanna kill you.
And now I've gone insane.
Insane.<33333333


i know you hate yourself..
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[21 Sep 2004|01:32pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

Ok for those of you who watch the new real world, the kid Landon, the realllly hot one, he looks just like Brian Yeldon from hollywood hills... sooo if anyone goes to hills and knows Brian, LOOK AT HIM! its scary!

Daytona with Mike this weekend..hopefully..

Anyone up for goin to orlando, halloween horror nights for a weekend, lemme know cause we're takin a road trip!! Whhooo 19 here i come!

Ever hear a song thats just amazing to you and you wish EVERYONE could hear it and think its awesome just like you do..well my new obsession is Ryan Caberea and he has this song called "she's" and its just..uhh its amazingly hot. you should listen.Its definately got a Goo Goo Dolls vibe to it which is probably why i like him so much..<3




hewaseverythingthatiwantedsomuchformyhappyending.

"youve got your dumb friends, i know what they say, they tell you im difficult but so are they...but they dont know me, do they even know YOU, al things you hide from me, all the SHIT THAT YOU DO.."



will i ever love again

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[20 Sep 2004|10:33am]
[ mood | lazy ]

1) Starting time: 9:49 am
2) Full Name: Nichole Athena Sanchez
3) Nicknames: Nic, Nick, Sanz
4) School: Art institute of Culinary Arts (Jan)
5) Email: dad's- sanchezsigns@bellsouth.net
6) Eyes: hazel
7) Hair: brown
8) Height: 5'5
9) Siblings? Ben, Summer and Donny
10) Ever been cheated on: yes
11) Ever missed school because it was raining: maybe, i dont really remember but i missed school plenty of times when the weather was perfectly sunny and beautiful:)
13) Kept a secret from everyone: you wouldnt believe
14) Had an imaginary friend: haha I think so, me and Hollys 5th grade friend penelope
15) Wanted to hook up with a friend? um....heh...yup..long time ago..LONG..
16) Cried during a Flick: of course
17) Had a crush on a teacher: Not so much a crushhh...maybe i thought he was cute..mr.brunt, mr.corrente..
18) Ever thought of animated characters as hot? trent from daria.
19) Ever at anytime owned a Guitar album: nope
20) Ever prank called someone: Yea
21) Been on stage: yes

~FAVORITES~

22) Shampoo: coconut and this blue berry crap, not in one of course
23) Color: blue, black, pink
24) Summer/Winter: summer
25) Online: wha?
26) Lace, silk or satin? Their all good for different things
27) Like Anyone? yup
28) Who have you known the longest of your friends: Mike
29) Who's the loudest friend you have: Nicole
30) Who's the shyest friend you have: Sivan..well i dunno about that anymore
31) Who do you go to for advice: Umm..Josh and Nili
32) Who do you get along with: haha pretty much all of my friends

~IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS HAVE YOU~

33) Cried: oooooh yeah
34) Been mean: of course thats what im all about
36) Been sarcastic: duh
37) Met someone new: yuppers
38) Watched a movie: um..lots of those lately
39) The last movie in the theatre I saw? Cellular with Josh and Nili
41) Fought with your parent(s):LAST NIGHT, basically its my fault we have 8 cats and flees everywhere from the 4 KITTENS we have..all my fault
42) Wished upon a star: does looking at the moon hoping for something count? same thing
43) Laughed until you've cried: Last night with Mick and Nili
44) Played Truth or Dare: no.
45) Watched a sunrise/sunset: yea..alone:(
46) Went to the beach at night: yeppp friday nite
47) Read a book for fun: a little booklet some Monk dropped off at work- Infertitility and Johovas witnesses..interesting stuff
49) Are you lonely: extremely
50) Are you happy: not the slightest
51) Are you talking to someone online: nope

~DO YOU BELIEVE IN~

52) God/Devil: im not really sure
53) Love: heh yep
54) The Closet Monster: nope
55) The Big Bang Theory: maybe
56) Heaven/hell: maybe
57) Superstitions: yeah sure
59) Who named you: Mom- "Nicole", my dad wanted some realllly greek name so he settled with Nic"H"ole..a greek thing
60) Backstreet Boys or N Sync: Nsync..DUH
61) When was the last time you showered: last night
62) What was the last thing that you said when you were online? "see ya in a bit"
65) What was the last thing that you did yesterday: got home from barnes and taco bell, ate with the bros then...cleaned my room and tried getting rid of some memories..yeah thats what i was doing..
67) Where would you want to go on your honeymoon: hmm..somewhere reallly romantic since some people dont have that runnin thru them..
68) Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with: eh, I could answer that quesion...but i'm not going to right now...i'll just say maybe I need to meet a few more people to answer that.
69) How's the weather: just stopped raining
70) What did you do yesterday: work 12-7, home, barnes and nobles with the boys, Taco bell, home, Surreal life:),cleaned alittle, cried a little and went to beddy bye
71) Thing(s) that you find attractive of the opposite sex: personality, eyes, hair, talent, creative, independant
72) How do YOU eat an Oreo: Twist them apart then dunk each side till its just right and eat it all up
73) All time favorite TV shows: Full House or Saved by the bell..real close
74) Dream car? Lexus Is300
75) What do you want to be when you grow up: Happy, but otherwise something dealing with cooking
78) Numbers: 17, 19, 25
78) Favorite food: something horrible for me so i wont even say it
80) Favorite day of the week: friday's good so is saturday
83) If you could change your name, what would it be? i like when girls have a name that could be a boys name also, like tyler, taylor, ryan but other then that, a really greek name, maybe Athena would have been nice
84) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yep
85) The most stupid thing u ever done: Couldnt just be happy with what i had, always had to complain till it drove things into the fucking ground, that and not trying harder to get into a better college, one further away, that could have done me good..
86) First Son's name: Anthony (my dad) or the dads name..
87) Wife/husband: hahaha I could tel ya what I want...but I have no clue
88) First daughter's name: Athena, something beautiful and unique, what about 'Seven'...im just kidding, little inside thing there
89) Favorite drinks: caprisuns and mochaass
90) You like scary or funny movies better? depends on the mood, sometimes its great to have fear and then sometimes you want to just crack up so it depends
91) On the phone or in person: In person
93) If you could change something about yourself what would it be?: umm, id be less anti social, then maybe id have some friends..and id try to be happy and make the best of a situation, not be such a drama queen
94) Do you consider cheerleading a sport: well..they work hard for their...bodies..so yes?
95) Do you have pets: O lord do i...8 cats- Blacky, Sassy, Mama cat, Midnight, the 4 kittens- Pudge, Chin-chin, the 2 unamed ones, Binky the dog, a few fighting fish, and all the animals that run around outside, the racoons, iguanas, stray cats..its like a damn jungle here
96) Who sent this survey to you: Got it from Christina online
97) What do you think of this person: She likes NFG, shes cool:)
98) What are a few of your favorite songs: right now...everything on Ryan Cabereas cd, New Senses fail and My happy ending by avril
99) what are some of your inside jokes: HAHA, theres way to many to name but their great ones
100) Do you want your friends to do this survey: If they feel to do so
101) time finished: 10:32am

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[26 Aug 2004|04:40pm]
Senses Fail, Silverstein, Name Taken, Madison

Saturday
Oct. 16
7 p.m.
All ages
Kelsey Club
700 Park Ave.
Lake Park
(561) 296-1407
(In association with Fat Harry Productions) $12 advance,
$14 at the door

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SensesFail.com
NameTakenMusic.com With poetic lyrics, cutting drums and faultless guitar melodies, New Jersey's Senses Fail merges the edginess of hardcore and the passion of punk rock. The band's debut full-length, Let It Enfold You, will be released Sept. 7 on Vagrant Records.



DAY BEFORE MY BDAY....I'll drive...anyone that wants to go, just lemmmmme know!:)
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[01 Jun 2004|02:28pm]
Some pre-prom pics here
www.picturetrail.com/punkrockvictim
:)
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You think you know someone... [21 May 2004|05:45pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

So yeah its been a month, exactly, today and its been really hard. If you dont know what im talking about, me and mark broke up..or went on a "break" a month ago. He keeps bullshitting me saying were gonna get back together and that hes gonna change and all this shit but i know its all lies. its been all lies for about..oh a year and a half now. yep thats right, this coming tuesday will be our year and a half marker..but are we going to be going out to dinner or spending time together like a nice caring couple does? Of course not, hed rather get fucked up and lie to me with his scumbag friend john. Who, seriously, who says to someone.."well im gonna keep lying to you..not mean to but its just gonna happen"..!??!?! i dont understand how someone can be so fake just to get somethng you want. it makes me sick and i feel discusted to think that i never noticed all this before, when it was happening right infront of my eyes. I thought he was different, said "oh he'd never do that to me, blah blah, hes different, he LOVES me.." yeah. Huge mistake. It sucks that i was so blind while it was all going on bc i wasted a year and a half of my life. I personally dont think it was a waste bc there were times when he was the best person in the entire world to me and it wasnt bc he wanted something bc well there was nothing to get, but i feel ive wasted it bc HE makes me feel it was a waste, that he could just throw me away the second he chooses. The reason for my writing my anger wasnt because i was pissed off or anything, i was actually in a good mood. I drove him home, said he had to start work at the new restraunt and asked me to come over after work...then the shit hit the fan. Usually when you lie to someone, or lie about something, you keep it to yourself right? That way it doesnt get out and spread around. Wellllll, lets just say Mark isnt smart enough to keep lies to himslef. Last weekend, he's at his dads, usually comes home on sunday in time for school..school and mark..yeah its not something you hear in the same sentence these days..well anyways monday comes and once again he isnt there, i just figured he's skipping with the scumbag AGAIN..i get text messages from his sn saying he got "mugged and hit with a baseball bat and he woke up and it was 7am monday morning.." so i PANIC and call his mom to tell her he was ok bc she was probably thinking hes dead. She called hospitals and clinics from here to miami..she knew he was ok but he was in TROUBLE..i didnt know what to think but come on, getting hit in the face by a bat wouldnt knock you out for over 12 hours...but of course i believed him. Went to see him that nite and well yeah... but i said "wow your face looks kinda swollen.." IT WASNT. it looked like it but no it wasnt. SO this whole time i thought that was the real story. Heres where the keeping lies to yourslef comes in. He and probably his twin decide to brag how they get away with telling lies to their parents and he probably threw in a comment about getting away with it from me too...well someone heard him tell someone, or heard someone else passing it on to another and word got back to me...how stupid do u have to be? People talk shit, and people pass shit on and it always comes back to me...he hasnt realized this. Turns out it was a "keg party" and he got fucked up and stayed there all night. HOW do you make up a story like that?!? Hes a fucking loser, him and all his friends. Its a shame cause he was SUCH a good guy too, its so sad to see good people go down the drain like that but if he thinks he can treat someone who'd do anything for him ,and if you know me, you know how i am about him, hes seriously mistaking. Hes gonna get whats coming to him. Maybe not now but he will.

So i got the NEW new found glory cd and i love it but its sad how every song is the typical relationship. Extremely awkward to be playing while were in the car and going thru what were going thru. Jordans like a frikin girl, singing about everything the GIRL goes thru in breakups and heartaches. Someone must have really hurt him for the entire cd to be a real life thing.
sad.

I bought a fish. One of those fighting ones. He'll be my new friend. I thought i had pink eye bc my eye was EXTREMELY pink the past 2 days but now its goin away.
Schools ending in a week or so. First i didnt care, then i tried getting all into graduating and being a senior, and now im just depressed and wanna get the hell outta there. Theres so many fuckin couples making out everywhere i fuckkkking look. Proms next saturday and the first DAY of school i was already excited for it and now, i dont even wanna fucking go. If you want my ticket, just ask man. Youll be escorted by a BOY named Mark Anthony Gundin. He'll treat you real nice and pay for the entire evening. HA keep prayin'.
I think when i see him tonite, his face really is gonna be swollen afterward ..he deserves a nice punch in the face dont you think?

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[12 Apr 2004|10:36pm]
MY boyfriend...the one who looks absolutely amazing when he takes his time to do his hair...decided to shave it all off today..and...uhhhh i cant stand it. wait till you see it people..

and he didnt even tell me until AFTER it was done! ahhhh! i hate him sometimes.


FUCK.


Oh and this chick tryin to look more like jlo on mtv...shes fuckin gross.
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[11 Apr 2004|05:51pm]
Its all ending...

:(
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